| let it out B |
[28 Mar 2005|08:44am] |
I really think girls were put in front of my face as a sign of punishment.I only seem to be good enough as a best friend for them and be dr. phill to their emotional problems. I dont mind talking and being their for my friends but just hearing these stories about how these guys are dogging them makes me wonder what they dont see in me thats stopping them from wanting to give me a chance. Every chick i meet lately seems to have a boyfriend already, and i keep getting in these friendship zones they fucking suck. I recently met this chick who came in from out of state and she is mad cool likes the same music i do and yada yada. So every weekend when i get the chance i usually will ride up their and hang out with her took her out on friday to eat for her birthday and then watched eternal sunshine of the spotless mind. But at the end of the night i knew my place once she told me about this other guy in my head im just saying
"way to go brian got yourself another one man"
Im hurting 19 years of being single plays a toll no ya and i know people are saying
"its not worth it man all you do is get hurt in the end"
"ide rather be single"
"let it come to you"
etc,etc,etc
Ive heard them all and ive taken them all into consideration but i wanna feel pain,love,etc. Im not insecure because i can go day by day without not must having somebody next to me. Its just meeting a new face sharing a close bond and then getting dissapointed in the end.
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They say that good girls love bad guys and that might be
But a bad girl with a good guy, that's unlikely
So what's a man to do to get to hold hands with you?
Do I talk shit and stand and look hard with my crew?
I don't know what to do, so I drown in my drink
It helps to numb the pain, cause when I sit and think about it
Eyes get clouded, thoughts get crowded (thoughts get clouded)
So I'ma sit right here, wait for you to talk about it-murs
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[20 Oct 2004|09:27pm] |
Dreams appear suddenly and vanish just as quickly
while we wait for the night to end
innumerable worlds passing us by in a hollow vortex
while we lie on our beds deep in sleep
I caught one last night, and saw your face with its pale glow
your distant head with hair follicles long, gone and hungry
for that Aquatic life in the deepest Blue
You playfully laughed and asked me about my gook girlfriend
I said it was a long story, and you slyly winked at me
As your smile blossomed somethin' bloody, I never noticed before,
honey, how there's something wild about your tentacle eyes
and the moon dust puffin' from your lids,
honey, there's something wild about your wavy
pupils dyed in magenta soils on Plymouth Rock
As your finger nails clawed at my arm like needles and syringes
I shuttered slightly cause I felt like I've known you all my life
just by your soft touch with its sharp tips and reddish flavor
I told you we needed to talk privately in a separate room
and you led me back...only for me to wake up like the idiot I am
I stared at my ceiling trying in vain to map out the road less traveled
as she vanished leaving only a static image in my eyelids
So what's it gonna be, eh?
The blips and clicks - the politics of modern life
or the ROAR; the white noise that threatens to drown us all
It's funny sometimes how I show my love of life
by how little I truly care for it
How I care more about a distant package in the mail
or the chance phone call from a long lost girlfriend
More than the flocks of black helicopters flying over my house
the ominous police waiting with trained attack dogs and grim austerity
the green eyes watching my every movement as I go to mail your letter
the talking heads babbling about jihad and Islamist radicalism
warnings and re-warnings of a Code Orange ALERT ALERT ALERT
military personnel holding an endless death watch over the city
as an attack looms imminently over the horizon
My life - it's simply the blips and clicks - the snap crackle pop
of a distant female voice echoing over static hiss on a radio in my mind
The ROAR means about as much to me as robots destroying Czechoslovakia
in a B-Movie on a freight train destined for Outer Mongolia
The continual, mechanical hum of the cicadas hungry for our flesh
is merely a minor annoyance, an afterthought, an inconvenience
not the barbed sheets of chaotic noise: the mask of Death...
...it's just a jester's mask to me
Cause I can't remember what I wanted to tell you in that bedroom
before I woke up - I can't remember why I wrote this letter
I can't remember what I'm afraid of, or even what I wanted to do
today, tomorrow, forever
Let the buzz heighten to an unstoppable ROAR - a totalitarian soundscape
Let the density explode, the volume drown out any other melody
You've already wrapped me in oppressive longing, fear and frustration
Take me to the Ganges - wash me down in white noise
purify me by destroying my flesh, my body, my bones
and eventually expunging my soul in an abyss of unified chaos
I don't want to live in empty words
Dreams are a rare occurrence for me, so I probably won't see you
until this letter receives you like an Edict sealed by the coat of arms
of some forgotten Moravian emperor as his kingdom fell apart
before his tired eyes
Emotional fascism - intimate imperialism - friendless revolt
all this concerns me more than the void that will eventually
consume us all
I try to care, but when I close my eyes all I see
is the girl who wears swastikas in the summer breeze
like Eva Braun only she smiles so fragile and tragic
God, you'll never understand...
It's like flogging the albatross around your
fragile jellyfish lanterns and cod candles
Nothing more
and certainly nothing less
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[13 Sep 2004|03:18am] |
I didnt realize how depressed and lonely my ass was until i hanged out with a friend couple nights ago. It's wierd because we had the same things in common as far as relationships and being pissed off at where we lived at lol. But for me it just hit me that im a LOSER!!!! i dont drive,dont work...well sord of... and i go to nova. Let alone i dont have a female i dont necessarily HAVE to have it with me but the feeling of someone caring for you would be nice and to hold hand's with,etc would feel pretty good. I havent really had that in all my life sure ive had girl friends but none lasted more then a week nor did anything come out from it. And to be honest i cant understand what it is that i lack.... I seem to THINK im a nice,down to earth,funny,open minded, and someone DESCENT looking..dunno. For one time in my life i would like to be on a reall date with someone and just get a touch of what love and trust can feel like it..because ive never had it.
::sighs:: nothing like 3:30 am venting...bla
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| new poem |
[10 Sep 2004|03:41am] |
Cassiopeia (b.e_reborn)
he looks flat on the surface, but under the sealant
lives a galaxy fast asleep where the colors are brilliant
caught my eye...i watched this figure lurkin
on paper, he had flavor - body was picture perfect
fell for each other, nothin can stop the drop now
love's a blessin, plus his expressions are long and drawn out
emotions painted so strong, they severed doubt or lies
with each stroke, he seemed to float - but never out of line
we were almost complete, equipped with the finishin touches
at heart, a work of art...nothin could diminish the lovin
but suddenly, our perfect skies were smoldered black
our course turned as the weather burned - overcast
felt the drops fall, no point in makin him stay
now time, his flawless outline began fadin away
he was runnin from me - nothin but masses of color
it's astounding how surroundings can trap in a lover
sight was blurry, body - i could feel it shakin
in vain, the rain maimed our perfect illustration
storm engulfed us, existance vanished like lightning
within minutes it was finished...the canvas was wiped clean
Cepheus (Monk)
she was portrayed in a bitter sweet luminated smile
had the body of a mystic river and the color's of the nile
The atmosphere was perfect her presence was outlined in black
dressed in silk and carved petite her arch was perfect on her back
as the day passed my eyes were directed to her face
made speechless but the contact spoke for itself in many ways
the feeling of pukka embraced my presence to the aroma
of exotic textures she sensed my heart from athens to barcelona
bein frozen in this art piece i hoped to be cemented
because the vibes that dali drew were forever printed
he would like it this way but grey casted upon the sky
and the bond between me and destiny would slowly die
as the brush stroked a relationship formed between atlantis
and rain drops meshed togethor sinking love between the canvis
i was melting away slowly she couldnt understand why
forcing me to hold tighter but the ink would never dry
memory fading i couldnt remember how it even started
she was out of my sight i felt suicidal and departed
heaven shined above me and extasy was the theme
it just hurt's that we didnt exist ...we were soon wiped clean
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[09 Sep 2004|01:15am] |
GEORGE BUSH ON THE WAR IN IRAQ
The Bush administration attacked Iraq claiming Saddam had weapons of mass destruction and links to Al Qaeda. No weapons were ever found and the intelligence has since been proven to be false. The bipartisan 9/11 commission said on the link between Iraq and Al Qaeda: "We have no credible evidence that Iraq and Al Qaeda cooperated on attacks against the United States."
Even if the weapons aren't real, the deaths are. More than 1,000 coalition troops have died in action. More than 11 times that number of Iraqi civilians have been killed in the fighting.
Misuse of the military hits people of color especially hard. One-third — 30% — of the military is made up of people of color. 20% of the enlisted force is African American, although 12% of the U.S. population is African American.
Not everyone was hurt by Bush's war though. Halliburton, the company where Vice President Dick Cheney was CEO and still has millions in stock options, was given multi-billion dollar contracts in Iraq without competitive bidding.
Where's the compassion? Billions in federal money will be spent on rebuilding Iraq. Meanwhile, 12% of Americans live in poverty and our communities are in disarray. Yet Bush said he wanted to help the "long suffering people of that country". What about this country?
GEORGE BUSH ON RACE RELATIONS
"It's very interesting when you think about it, the slaves who left here to go to America, because of their steadfast and their religion and their belief in freedom, helped change America." — Dakar, Senegal
Bush's backers are almost exclusively white. In 2000, 95% of Bush's total votes came from white voters.
And Bush knows exactly who his supporters are. Maybe that's why he's the first president since Herbert Hoover to never once sit down and talk with the NAACP.
How's this for adding insult to injury? In 2003, Bush chose Martin Luther King Jr. Day to announce his opposition to University of Michigan's affirmative action policy, a policy the conservative supreme court eventually upheld.
This year on MLK Jr's birthday, he elevated Charles Pickering to the federal bench. Pickering is known to be hostile to civil rights and lenient on cross burners.
GEORGE BUSH ON ECONOMIC DISPARITY
The Bush administration is here to serve the wealthy — period. Thanks to Bush's tax cuts the richest top 1% of Americans save more than $30,000 a year while the poorest 31% save nothing at all.
Talking about the top 1% percent… The average worth of the members of Bush's original 16-person Cabinet is $10.9 million. They're all saving money under the cuts. For example the tax cuts will save Vice President Dick Cheney about $116,000 a year.
Poor workers aren't faring nearly as well. Bush opposed every attempt to raise the minimum wage since taking office. And the workers earning minimum wage are the lucky ones. 2.9 million workers have lost their jobs since Bush got to D.C.
You hear about the recovery, but you don't see it. This is going to be the first president in 75 years to lose more jobs than he created. And of course people of color are the hardest hit. The unemployment rates for Blacks and Latinos are higher than that of white Americans — in the case of Black Americans the unemployment rate is double (10.1%) than that of whites (5%).
While the rich get richer and the poor stay poor, the nation is going bankrupt. America faces a record $520 BILLION budget deficit.
So what does Bush do to close the deficit caused by his tax cuts for the wealthy? He took $300 million from federal funds meant to help poor people pay for home heating and proposed a $28 billion cut to benefits for veterans.
GEORGE BUSH ON CRIMINAL JUSTICE
"The only things that I can tell you is that every case I have reviewed I have been comfortable with the innocence or guilt of the person that I've looked at. I do not believe we've put a guilty ... I mean innocent person to death in the state of Texas." — NPR
While Bush's corporate criminal buddies find a way to stay out of jail, he loves to stick it to other criminals. As governor of Texas, he executed more prisoners (152) than any governor in modern U.S. history.
Bush backers like the prison industrial complex seem to make a living off of young black men. 12% of all black men between the ages of 20-34 are in jail. 1.5% of white men in the same age group are in jail. Although blacks are 12% of the U.S. population, they make up almost 50% of the prison population.
Bush has good reason to want to see African Americans convicted of a felony. Only 6% of black voters say they plan to vote for Bush. He knows that anyone convicted of a felony permanently loses their right to vote in Florida. In 2000, 1 in 3 black men in Florida were unable to cast a ballot — hundreds claim they were wrongly purged from the voter rolls. Bush won that state by only a few hundred votes. Connect the dots.
The Florida voting debacle of 2000 helped perpetrate the idea that convicted felons cannot vote. In most states, once you've served your time, you become a full-fledged citizen again: you can vote. The organization Right to Vote www.righttovote.org does some great work to end "felony disfranchisement."
Bush isn't just tough on American prisoners. Under Bush's watch American's were found to be brutalizing Iraqi prisoners — many of them innocent civilians.
GEORGE BUSH ON EDUCATION
"If affirmative action means what I just described, what I'm for, then I'm for it. "
Bush talks a lot about education and "no child left behind," but it's just talk. Since enacting No Child Left Behind Bush and the Republican Congress have fallen short of funding their promises by over $26 Billion; meanwhile, the public's investment into rebuilding Iraq is going to reach $100 Billion by the end of the year.
Of course, minority children and children in underpriveledged areas suffer the worst from these policies. High School graduation rates for historically disadvantaged people of color (Native American, Latino, Black) are around 50%, almost 20% below the national average (68%).
And if you make it out of High School, good luck paying for college. Tuition at public colleges has risen 30% over the last 14 years. Republican proposals would cause students to pay about $5,500 more per year on student loans.
GEORGE BUSH ON HEALTH CARE
Bush has talked about stopping the spread of AIDS in Africa, but his initiatives are mired in a focus on abstinience. How about a focus on reality. In this country, 50% of new HIV cases are African Americans. Latinos have seen their infection rate shoot up 17%.
HIV and AIDS are not the only health concern of people of color… Overall, life expectancy for Black Americans is 5 years less that that of White Americans, and Latinos don't live as long as their white counterparts either.
Bush never had to worry about going to the doctor. While health care coverage is a problem for all Americans, people of color suffer the most. 33% of Latinos lack health insurance while 17% of African Americans are forced to pay their own way to the doctor — 11% of white Americans are without insurance of any kind.
GENERAL BUSHNESS
"Do you have blacks, too?" — To the Brazilian President
Bush doesn't have a clue what it is like to work. Bush took 28 vacation days August 2003 (the second-longest vacation of any president in U.S. history — record holder: Richard M. Nixon). Most Americans with a full-time job are lucky to get 13 vacation days a year.
Imagine if you worked like this. As of April, 2004, Bush has spent 500 days (40% of his presidency) on vacation. Although some have been referred to as "working vacations," Bush spends most of this time at his private ranch in Texas. We'll take some working vacations like that.
Bush and his friends have it so rigged, and it's not hard to figure out how to get in on it. Over 80 'Pioneers' — folks who raised $100,000 for Bush in 2000 – were appointed to government posts, including 19 as ambassadors and 2 to the cabinet.
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[29 Jul 2004|03:49am] |
and tiff screams: man i hate when you do that shit
DeviL69J: im sick of callin you all i hear is ringing
man people are so loving right tiffany and sara lol
everyone on august 9th tiffany will be on a show called switched airing at 3pm. (abc family is the channel)
congratulations dorkus this is like what the 8th time ive exposed you hahaha.I still say we should enter the next bonnie and clyde break dance jam foo!!!
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| napoleon |
[28 Jul 2004|04:01pm] |
man finally saw napoleon dynamite so i can check that off my must see list lol.
The movie was just plain out hilarious i don't remember one time where i didnt stop laughing just reminds you of people who actually do have that odd nerd personality. But i must say the highlight of the movie was when he was dancing for pedro's skit and had the song jamiroquai-canned heat playing.
awesome movie
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| bla |
[27 Jul 2004|04:38am] |
been reading alot lately
got
1.vintage hughes-langston hughes collection
2.basic writtings of nietzsche
3.dharma punx
4.life of pi
some good tunes to listen to
masta ace-the grind
blonde redhead-elephant women
emiliana torrini-if you go away
eyedea and abilities-paradise
electric light orchestra-mr. blue sky
telefon tel aviv-sound in a dark room
(note:this isnt all hip hop lol)
gotta still see
napoleon dynamite
donnie darko director's cut
and the village
anyone wanna come with me :) :) :)
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[15 Jul 2004|12:54pm] |
If I could have time without end
Would I be as concerned with friends
With life
Would I care as much about how my days were spent
Would history mean as much to me
And would my lessons be wise
Could I remember those who've touched me
By looking in other's eyes
If I could have time without end
Would I be immortal eternal
Would death still seek cracks in my skin
So sin could begin its journal
What would right and wrong mean to a man such as I
Who would climb mountains for the sole purpose of touching the sky
One who knows no future or past~ Just ongoing present
A gift of God given from heaven and instilled in my essence
Would this world by my prison after I'd seen it all
Learned every tongue and law and ceased to be appalled
By the acts of everyday man~ Men who lie to lay hands
On anything of value you have~ The fiends who make plans
To shake hands and judge you by the strength of your grip
The length of your whip~ Mirages in life trying their best not to slip
If I could have time without end would I want to, eventually, quit
Separate myself from greed, lust and all lying lips
Or would I yearn for the brevity of life's flame in a dice game
Living fast with ignorant youth in the hope that they might change
In truth
I think the gift would show itself to be a curse
Ever-evolving through mortal minds showing the same pain and hurt
And if my time never came to a close then I suppose
My search for meaning would show me a gift that I could never approach
Too much time....
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[12 Jul 2004|01:21pm] |
just me or does that movie the village look really good ?
hope it is
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[07 Jul 2004|03:58am] |
man out of town right now
getting back into the whole poetry groove again
music is lacking somewhat
friends well....let's just say i need a break nothing on them just the whole drinking phase and racial jokes are getting a little played out for ME and i dont this stopping with the group but i got alot of love for them :).
family is good i gotta say im enjoying my time seeing my asian relatives up here in rhode island its something to appreciate since i dont see them often. So i gotta make the best of these last remaining days
the whole gym thing is going good for me as well hopefully i can stick with it and work on getting my lazy ass to the dmv i really need to drive. Least i have a job guess its better then nothing. Im trying life isn't meant to be easy so ill just have to fight back harder eh
note to self:
MUST SEE NAPOLEON DYNAMIGHT WITH MOVIE BUDDY and catch up sorry for not keeping in touch like i should have.
MUST not do no more fast food and no more money on resteraunts
oh yea and i recommend everyone to get the coheed and combria cd it's a must get
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[03 Jun 2004|10:29pm] |
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"i dont know the key to success but i know the key to failure is trying to please everyone"-bill cosby
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[25 May 2004|12:29am] |
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| work |
[14 May 2004|05:49am] |
yea so working at friendly's this past week
is the most easiest job until 2pm hit's the clock and im rushed with private school quuer's who want the most complicated thing's known to man.
I hate the job but it's good hour's
10-4 can't complain to much
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| NEVER |
[04 May 2004|10:19am] |
Im Never eating a flatliner chicken wing in my life again it made me so sick.
For anyone who has at more then one i bow to them lol.
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[13 Apr 2004|06:03pm] |
Ability is but capability and zeal. Freedom is the obstacle. Desires for independence churn in the heads of many of today’s youth. They so believe that they know what is best for them, or at least what they want immediately considering the latter consequences. They are not mindless; they have been known to be fanatical, but never underestimate what they could accomplish.
Society is at war with itself; there are many who have not the power that they so desire for fun that will in fact, expire. The war of opinion, the war of doubt, the war of “what if?” and “without?” So many see this sacrilegious sarcophagus as a splendid place to sweat no more, and swim much further.
Little by little we will evolve. Not our bodies, no, that will come after the mind. Yes, the mind. For so long the culture has been drifting toward the iceberg of extreme diversity. In time, sudden changes in the way other human beings think about unlike versions of their same species will have taken the race much further down the track. This part of the shadow will now show its face to claim all who fall beneath its invincible grip of hopeless passion. It does no work. No. For the feast brings itself to the table, readily prepared.
Through it all, political standpoints of equality will shrewdly cover the rusted body of mankind’s mind. On the street there is a different rule. At the parks there are exceptions. In the office there is warped eyeglass in which all voluntarily peer through to build themselves up by the dismissal of others.
So what now? Here you stand, clutching all your similarities to your breast as if they held you together. All your cares are tied closely to your walking stick. Your desires shadow those of many, and your fate falls into the groove of mental erosion that passion, has driven deep into the canyon of sanity.
Take a left turn instead! Decide that you can stay home tonight. Forget about the fact that you’ve never seemed to be able to impress anyone. Forget the fact that your car yields only one hundred and seventy-five horsepower to your pitiful command, in contrast to that of the cars pulling ahead of you on the flat. Forget your desire, your drive, your schedule, and your ambitions, forget them all. For they have all been conceived through something that cannot even be grasped. They stand false, and how to you expect to build your tower of safety atop such a foundation?
You cannot. so write a song, read a book, see a movie, ask her out, or try something new. Your are trapped, so take advantage of this ‘illusional’ fantasy while you still can, it will only be around forever.
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[11 Apr 2004|07:01am] |
been limiting myself to who i have been hanging out with lately....dunno just beggining to see who my true friends are who are just complete bullshit lately.People thinking im cock blocking them when its not even the case ,people being nosy and trying to see im telling the truth, just simple stuff like that i dont need it in my life at the moment and im not in the 7th grade cant wait till i start driving in the end of may so i can just do my own shit and not depend on these pricks
But bla this entree cant be all negative im really looking forward to new york with dan testicles and my birthday tomorow so pz out hope you all have a good and safe easter nothing like family -1-.
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[06 Apr 2004|04:49am] |
5 Things You Don't Know About Me
1.I consider myself a artist not in the painting,drawing way but i do make music
and have been doing it for almost 5 years now although i am keeping my work sorda of low key at the moment
i do have a passion and love for hip hop music. Not alot know but by reading this you do now :)
(and yes i dont like chingy,lil flip,lil jon,ying yang twins,etc)annoying as hell i try to make music with a sense of meaning eithor about things i have encountered or my surroundings.
2.People are sord of quick to judge me as a wannabe "thug" but in reality i do listen to more then just hip hop music and crave about learning diffrent types of genres and forms of music. Im more open minded then people think unlike most my cd collection probably would vary in artist from most people i know who stick to just one taste. And to clear up im not close to even being a thug and never will be i just wear whats comftorable nothing wrong with that right ? and i dont talk ebonics or smoke weed and get drunk OR PARTICIPATE IN A GANG.
3.at the age of 5 i was diagnosed with a.d.d but most dont know i have it since i take medication for it and its not as severe as others but ...i do have my moments i normally say just dont give me sugar (and i cant have alot of that stuff :() hate candy though. I also take zoloft (depressent) medication since i have had a bad case of depression in diffrent periods of my life
but im ok 70% of the time so dont feel you have to be super nice to me i like blunt people trust me i dont hurt on the inside so easily so try hard if you wanna hit my weak spots hehe.
4.my mom passed away when i was in 6th grade and father passed away in sophomore year of highschool so i now live with my grandparents.
5.lets it get this one clear IM NOT SPANISH im black/asian assholes :( if i hear one more person talk to me in spanish im gonna go insane it just shows how people assume so quickly these days.
hope you learned a thing or to about me pz
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[04 Apr 2004|09:07am] |
ok ok so this weekend sucked i didnt do shit really been going to the gym lately though so i give myself credit for something.Saw dan friday and went to the most horrable place in my life called the hookah bar went to two of them (didnt see the point)At the first place this fat kid comes up to me wanting to freestyle battle i wasnt even in the mood for it so i said no and went in the car listened to some music. Then i saw my movie homie lol she wasnt having the best moment of her life so i wasnt alone i guess haha. Im really pushing my music faster then im suppose to be so hopefully my project will be done in june im expecting people are liking what they hear i just hope their honest with their thoughts. Other then that im suppose to go see my friend lana's exhibit in new york im pretty excited to see her work becouse i know she's put in alot of time to it and i know your gonna read this so GOOOOOO music homie haha by the way i need to pick up that ticket so tell me when its a good time and i hit edwin in the head for driving in your neighbors grass and him honking the horn even though he said its a accident hope you didnt get in trouble.
BLA well this writting below is just a little poetry peace i did with my friend i might be doin this at the cafe with her basically a conversation of questions and answers written in poetry format pz people and to your highschoolers have a safe spring break dont do nothing i would (wich is nothing at all)
confused, lost and abused in my state of mind,
trying to figure out why he, who i love is unkind,
when i ask the question, when i speak the words,
he shatters me into pieces, and i can't understand his thirds,
of no reason, no chance given to me,
he violates my athority, and burns my needs.
i know at times life is rough and your mind is about to freeze
ive seen your heart bleed, simply lost in this world of greed
put your mind over matter he doesnt understand his needs
show him love is greater then action and effection often speaks
your not broken just a jigsaw waiting to be put back in place
well heres your respect your beauty graces me in every taste
But, i just dont understand his sense to my emotion,
How do i approach him to film my love in this morning extension?,
i think i'll forget my dreams, and try to empty my passion into his mouth,
then he'll accept my kiss, and drink my evidence aloud,
i wanted to be perfect, but i always seem crooked,
when he looks in my eyes it's like he drowns my soul in cooking.
look into a mirror gotta find yourself to learn the lesson
its hard to understand something without life or reflection
he's already filmed you , the ending isnt quite their i know
its the acceptance that you lack for its him that needs to grow
Nobody's perfect,your human, god made you all to walk and fall
your not drowning your just in the wrong boat his size doesnt fit all
it's all so true, my conscience telling the truth,
you prove and provide my anwsers to every thought i question and do,
but yes, he is my soul, yes he is my life, yes he is my everything,
he is the light that opens my eyes, and makes me sing,
he takes away all the bad things that surround my shattered world,
but sometimes his actions confuse my mind, and i fall into a state as being a young naive girl.
i wouldnt lie to your purity my honesty is my wand
it simply keeps me connected with your sanity and bond
how i feel for your needs i know why your believing
it is love indeed, and for that my presence will be leaving
simply stop grieving he's glued togethor the fragile glass
your slowly getting yourself togethor,look forward not in the past
"Learn to love not by finding the perfect person,
but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly"
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nice collabing with you escape, very talented individual :)
[b]escape[/b]
[i]me(monk)[/i]
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life is so ...plain need to do more with it seriously
"and its just another rainy day"-josh martinez
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